Yup, it's Tuesday (well, actually Wednesday) but I'mma TRY to do a week long "theme" type blog.  This is my attempt to force myself to write in here everyday like I used to.  Well, Nas new album has fallen into my possession (COP THAT DOUBLE DISC "STREETS DISCIPLE" NOVEMBER 30TH).  One particular song that has stood out is a song called "Live Now", that is about appreciating life.  Peep how the song switches pace in the middle and.....nah, I'll give away too much.  Just listen to the second half of the song CLOSELY and pay attention to the flow and everything.  I swear, this is the most clever shit I've ever heard on a song before.  LOL.  Plus the lyrical content is tight.  If you can figure it out, hit me up on yahoo or something so I can see how much of a hip-hop head you REALLY are.

But yeah, this song makes me think about how I'm now 23.  I swear.....See...I'm the youngest cousin in my generation...so when my cousins started hitting their 20s....23 to be specific, I would always notice how time's flying.  And now here I am.  And all those cousins got babies....I got lil' cousins I don't even know.  No matter how much I try to live, it seems like life is still moving too fast.  Soon I'll be writing about how I got a kid or two and I never saw it coming.  This is crazy. 

I been with my girl for over a half year already.  It had me thinking....See, distance is cool in the beginning and all because we both know our situation and how it was too soon to try to relocate to be closer....But that only seemed like yesterday.  And at that pace, tomorrow will seem like a year.  I mean, I never expected that our 6 month mark would come so soon.  Hell, what am I talking about.  We are about to hit 7 months next week.  See, time IS flying.  So of course I know I gotta start thinking about how we are gonna continue to pull this off much longer with the distance.  We are gonna be approaching a year.  Can't let time just fly past me.  I gotta start forward-thinking.  And for once in my life, I'm thinking rather optimistic instead of pessimistic....and that's rare.  Especially for a relationship.  I just got good feelings about her and I know that we just need to be closer for things to shoot thru the roof.  The distance is a restraint on both our parts.  I think that our problems is that I don't have my shit together enough to make the move out there, and she's too cautious to move out here.  There are pros and cons on both our sides.  One compromise would be for us to meet halfway, but Oklahoma sucks from what I understand.  LMAO.  I think I'll try to talk to her more about it tonight or tomorrow and attempt to not catch feelings about the subject.  I admit I was a little pissed the other night when the subject came up.  I'm just afraid that if a move isn't made, we won't last.....